You want to know what it’s like writing an original character who is a female?
This is the first ever piece of hate I’ve received and since then it’s only grown.
This is what it’s like writing a female muse in a roleplay fandom, especially a female OC. Everyday many of us are bombarded with anonymous hate calling our muses sluts and whores for wanting to ship something. We’re told that’s all we want to write and shamed for it, and yet when we try to write something platonic, adventurous, or something aside from romance, we’re laughed at because our muses aren’t strong enough to do it.
As female OC’s we do our best and try to find people who will love our muse as much as we do to little or no avail because there is always something new or better that comes up. We never complain or say anything because we don’t want to be a bother. We don’t want to show any emotion because it will only worsen the stigma around us.
Female OC writers are ridiculed for coming up with a character we love and questioned why we’d even do so when no one wants to interact with us, and yet when a male character has a similar story or does a similar plot they’re applauded and cherished.
As female OC’s we have to constantly keep our page looking up to date and spectacular. Our icons need to be flashy and perfect, our writing small and bold, and our homepage more graphic than most people are capable. If we do not do things no one will even look at us.
It’s constantly worrying about saying the wrong thing, about not getting too excited if romance does come our muse’s way. It’s about always having to triple check and wonder if we should reblog the NSFW meme then trying to gather enough courage to face the hate we know we’ll get. It’s worrying constantly about whether or not you can get excited about anything because you don’t want to seem annoying. It’s debating for hours to post a headcanon you were once really excited about, but you’re unsure if anyone actually cares. It’s waiting weeks to receive one meme. It’s watching people you admire never answer yours despite your mutual status.
Day after day we log on and wonder how much we can express our muse. It’s wondering if we should even say anything at all because we know how much the RP world hates female oc’s and we don’t want to give anyone else a reason to. It’s watching your other female oc’s struggle with the exact same problem. It’s every single day wondering if you should just give up on your muse that you worked so hard to create.
We give more than we receive, and we’ve had to learn how to be okay with that because let’s face it we know how to because it’s an issue in the real world too.
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